The Price of Doubt

Today I thought I missed you

I nearly called your name

The memories practically crossed my mind

I slightly felt the pain

I glanced up at your picture

I've been wanting to replace

I looked into the mirror and I thought I saw your face

I wonder why I do this

It's bordering on insane

And I'm as good as crazy cause I know I am to blame

I was about to call you

Pretty near took up the phone

Was on the brink of breaking down

Could barely take no more

I wrote myself a letter

At least I almost did

More or less to remind myself 
of what brought me to this

I must maintain composure, retain my sanity

But every time I think of you

I break essentially

I told you that it's over

That I don't want you no more

But I'm just shy of admitting

It probably was my fault

I know it was suspicion

I really had no proof

But I was relatively sure

That what I had heard was true

I'm sorry that I doubt you

I must apologize

I know id hurt you once before

And you never got over those lies

Forgive me dear I'm sorry

For all the pain I've caused

If only I had trusted you I never would have lost

Written by Carmen Bailey